Yeah. I want to grow up! These are
the words I let go with my mouth accompanied with tears. Though it really hurts
and feeling like my heart was tore but these are just signs that I accepted the
fact that I moved on.
There are times like you cry a lot because
you want him back, but this won't happened anymore. I just accepted the fact that we can’t be
together and I’m still young. There are lots of happenings that will pass in my
life.
“I’LL
BE FINE”. Life is a weather. The storm came along in my life and destroyed
everything. After he destroyed my life, here I am, still strong and ready to
face the next trials.
It was
really hard for me to let him go, but that’s life and letting him go was the
biggest trial I’ve overcome. If we are really meant for each other, I know fate
will make a way.
I was
also thinking, what if one day will come and I’ll meet him accidentally? I
really can’t imagine what would be my reaction. Well, come what may and I would
never avoid him, because if I do, it seems like I’m so affected. Yeah. Lol
Today,
honestly I’m missing him. I am long for his messages. Maybe, we are not
really meant for each other, maybe, God is reserving someone for me, but for
this moment, in my heart and in my keeps saying the phrase, “I’ll keep
on loving him”.
Before,
every time I woke up in the morning I really prayed about us that we will
surpass every problem, but I guess that would be only until there. I guess
infinity only exist in the hands of God. I guess, infinity will exist when both
of you will not surrender. Yeah. I admit I surrender right away but he left me
behind, there was none I could lean on and the only thing that came into my
mind was letting him go and let myself find who really I am. Sorry
“Ako’y
alipin mo kahit hindi batid, aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid.” I could still
remember this song he sang to me while he put his forehead unto mine. Why does
he give me so much to remember? Well, I
know we are not really destined and I know your fate is really different in
mine.
Before,
you really wish that we should be, but where is it now? You were the once who
broke your own wishes and promises. It was your choice to hurt me, Kieth. And
now, all I need to do is move on and find a better happy ending.
I was
too wrong on meeting someone like you. I was too wrong that, I, was the one who
let myself trapped in yours. Now that you’re gone, BE HAPPY and I’ll be the
best I can. I know there’s this someone that needs you more and God’s reserving
you for her.
